It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year...
This is what I get for skipping therapy a couple weeks ago. A rabid case of PMS wherein nothing is good, everything sucks, and Christmas makes me want to choke someone.
I hate snow. HATE it. When I was a kid, I loved it. I couldn't get enough of it. Now, I want to pick up and relocate to a snow-free zone. Seriously. Aside from the fact that everyone can tell you're wearing the same jeans you wore yesterday because of the fucking salt stains on the cuffs, snow just makes me tired.
It's hard to walk in and it gets dirty.
And when it snows... when it gently drifts from the sky among all the twinkle lights, bringing with it that crisp smell of winter...that just makes you want to get home and cuddle up with your sweetheart, well...Fuck snow.
I used to love Christmas so much. Last year was pretty depressing as I was still trying to get over someone...and this year, what do you know? I think I need to make this an official holiday tradition.
Christmas tree (with kick ass ornaments, I do love one thing about this season) Check.
Nativity scene with the baby jesus secreted away until Christmas morning.... cuz he's not damn born yet...Check.
Smelly candles to offset the crudity of an artificial tree... Check.
Enormous sense of lonliness served with a side of despair that rears it's ugly head every 20 minutes. Check.
Fabulous. The Christmas can now begin.
I'll start feeling better when I get all my shopping done. I do get very excited about being with my family and friends and giving them stuff...
I hate snow. HATE it. When I was a kid, I loved it. I couldn't get enough of it. Now, I want to pick up and relocate to a snow-free zone. Seriously. Aside from the fact that everyone can tell you're wearing the same jeans you wore yesterday because of the fucking salt stains on the cuffs, snow just makes me tired.
It's hard to walk in and it gets dirty.
And when it snows... when it gently drifts from the sky among all the twinkle lights, bringing with it that crisp smell of winter...that just makes you want to get home and cuddle up with your sweetheart, well...Fuck snow.
I used to love Christmas so much. Last year was pretty depressing as I was still trying to get over someone...and this year, what do you know? I think I need to make this an official holiday tradition.
Christmas tree (with kick ass ornaments, I do love one thing about this season) Check.
Nativity scene with the baby jesus secreted away until Christmas morning.... cuz he's not damn born yet...Check.
Smelly candles to offset the crudity of an artificial tree... Check.
Enormous sense of lonliness served with a side of despair that rears it's ugly head every 20 minutes. Check.
Fabulous. The Christmas can now begin.
I'll start feeling better when I get all my shopping done. I do get very excited about being with my family and friends and giving them stuff...
posted by LC Greenwood at 3:51 PM
1 Comments:
I know you are hurting, but try to think of it this way.....this year, for the holidays, you will be able to be yourself completely. You will have no one else's expectations to adhere to, and even though your self is low right now, it's you. And no one that loves you would want you to be anything other than yourself. You can cry on my shoulder any time.
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