What the F?
Ok so, I'm minding my own business last night.
Out with friends. Some actor types and such.
And it hits me.
I haven't really acted in anything in a while.
I haven't "practiced the craft" in a long time.
My friends and I make fun if the idea of "the craft" all the time as some pretentious, pompous bullshit reserved for an elitest point of view.
Trouble is, once upon a time, I had a lot of respect for that terminology. I was good. I trained. I studied. And then it just all disappeared. The drive, the passion, the desire to learn and to grow. And it made me really sad.
Maybe I've been making fun of it all this time to cover the fact that I miss it and I've been complacent and lazy. And jaded.
I've let my anger at circumstances beyond my control (or comprehension for that matter) lead me away from something I truly enjoyed doing.
And now, I have to take this big break after I'm done with my present show (that I'm not acting in) so that I can be available to my family as we approach my brother's marriage. So, in essence, I won't be able to get back on any type of track until next fall.
I suppose I could take that time to get back into a class. A class that isn't disgusing itself as a cult.
Out with friends. Some actor types and such.
And it hits me.
I haven't really acted in anything in a while.
I haven't "practiced the craft" in a long time.
My friends and I make fun if the idea of "the craft" all the time as some pretentious, pompous bullshit reserved for an elitest point of view.
Trouble is, once upon a time, I had a lot of respect for that terminology. I was good. I trained. I studied. And then it just all disappeared. The drive, the passion, the desire to learn and to grow. And it made me really sad.
Maybe I've been making fun of it all this time to cover the fact that I miss it and I've been complacent and lazy. And jaded.
I've let my anger at circumstances beyond my control (or comprehension for that matter) lead me away from something I truly enjoyed doing.
And now, I have to take this big break after I'm done with my present show (that I'm not acting in) so that I can be available to my family as we approach my brother's marriage. So, in essence, I won't be able to get back on any type of track until next fall.
I suppose I could take that time to get back into a class. A class that isn't disgusing itself as a cult.
posted by LC Greenwood at 12:50 PM
2 Comments:
You still are good, LC. Just because you haven't been in anything since last fall doesn't mean you've lost your chops. Hey - if ever you want to fill in for Tre or Trina, I'll gladly step down for a night. You let me know.
Make another movie.
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