It's all a Mystery

So, here's this Flaming Lips song that I've been obsessed with for the past two weeks... I know... Reprinting lyrics is not only illegal, it's also just plain tacky... but I have to.

"I thought I was smart - I thought I was right I thought it better not to fight -
I thought there was a
Virtue in always being cool - so when it came time to
Fight I thought I'll just step aside and that time would
Prove you wrong and that you would be the fool -

I don't know where the sun beams end and the star
Light begins it's all a mystery

Oh to fight is to defend if it's not
Now than tell me when would be the time that you would stand up
And be a man - for to lose I could accept but to surrender
I just wet and regretted this moment - oh that I - I Was the fool

I don't know where the sun beams end and the star
Light begins it's all a mystery
And I don't know how a man decides what right for his
Own life - it's all a mystery

Cause I'm a man not a boy and there are things
You can't avoid you have to face them when you're not prepared To face them

- If I could I would but you're with him now it'd do no good I
should have fought him but instead I let him - I let Him take it -

I don't know where the sun beams end and the star
Light begins it's all a mystery
And I don't know how a man decides what right for his
Own life - it's all a mystery"

So, that's how I've been feeling a lot these days... but I like this song because there's a kind of acceptance in it. There's no panic. It's just the way life is. And we go through tests every day that challenge our beliefs of how we believe the world should be or how our lives should be going.

So, again. Don't panic, fight the monster and remember... no more nights in the alley.